Never Give Up

The past few weeks have been a blur. We haven't seen any improvements since our stint at Sky Ridge. Brent did start chemo, however that could take quite some time to kick in. We've seen a rapid decline in his health over a short period of time and can't stay on top of it all. Our main concern has been keeping him hydrated. He had several bags of fluid at the infusion center yesterday and was already dehydrated again today. His breathing has gotten significantly worse the past few weeks. I thought he might pass out walking out of the infusion center yesterday.

Today our angels came in the form of Brent's mom and sister. They convinced us to have Brent admitted to Sky Ridge again. Praise the lord for them and my sister, who communicated with Brent's mom for them to come talk to us. Shortly after checking in the doctors found blood clots in his right leg and lung. He is en route to the ICU for a procedure to break up the clots.

I'm happy with our decision, but I know I was having a hard time making the call because it's Christmas. I now realize that was just silly. As Brent's family reminded me today, Christmas is what we make it. We also get to decide when we celebrate it. Brent and I told the boys about our decision together. They understand and just want their papa to feel better. Plus it doesn't hurt that my family is spoiling them 💯.

It's been getting more and more difficult keeping it together in front of the kids. I can't explain how hard it's become to keep my composure. The extra reminders that we are not alone have felt like a burden was lifted off my shoulders the past few days. Brent reminded me today that this journey isn't meant to be easy, and we will get past this part. He is the reason I will never give up. As hard as it becomes, I will always have hope. I am so so blessed to call this man my husband. We are so lucky to have family that will do anything for us. The fact that our village is so phenomenal has changed me forever. Every chance I get, I will pay it forward as all of you have done for us.

I pray that Brent's procedure goes smoothly. Prayer warriors, I request that we lift Brent's doctors up and surround them with light. They have all been so kind and never give up.

Happy Holidays to each and every one of you.

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  1. Maria Cristina MooreJanuary 16, 2020 at 1:58 PM

    Its so hard because we want him to get through this so badly. Your blogs are so informative Tash. Praying for your strength most of all. ❤

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